Goodbye 2011, a year that I will remember forever & ever.
What has happened in 2011? So much, so so so many heartbreaking news in just a year. I'm amazed that a 16-year-old girl, me, gone through all that I had to face earlier. I can honestly admit that I was weak at first but now, everything happened made me stronger. I can say, I'm strong now even though I still cry easily while watching dramas. In this year, I have tried the feeling when you can't sleep because you miss someone too much and yet you can't see them with your own pair of eyes anymore. I have tried crying myself to sleep because it hurts too much for me to take. I have tried sleeping with a totally broken heart. I have tried waking up from my sleep realizing something is missing, and a deep hole in my heart. I have tried the feeling when you got shot straight through your heart. I have experienced something that I never thought I have to experience. I was a broken-hearted girl. Most of all, I have learned a lot in just a year. I learned that life is short, you will never know when you will leave this earth. I learned that I only live once, so why not do what I love & live life to the max? I learned that everything happens for a reason. I learned to be strong. I'm proud of myself, I'm really proud. I never thought Cheyenne was this strong, I never thought Cheyenne wouldn't give up. Yes, I did not give up when everything was going wrong, when everything was hurting me so badly. Actually, I never thought of giving up. I was positive and that made me where I am right now. No matter how hard your life can get, never give up. Never ever give up. After that, you'll be amazed by how far you've gone.
In this bad year, many people lost the ones they love, including me. 5 deaths in a year is really really really heartbreaking. On 30th of March, I lost a friend, a friend that once called me 'dear', a friend that I love. Read more here.
(I don't want to write more(I have A LOT more to write) because I think there are things which I should keep to myself, and also I should probably start writing a diary, not an open diary.)
In 2012, I will start living today like my last. I will appreciate everyone around me. I will show my family & friends how much I love them. I will not stop chasing my dreams. I will be a better person.
I will live my life with no regrets.
Oh hello, 2012, please be better than I have expected. x
I feel bad that you had to experience to a lot of tough challenges this year. I hope 2012 will be better for you.
ReplyDeleteThank you for this wonderful post!! You've really inspired me to take a risk because I've realized that yes, life is too short. We will never know when we'll die... maybe today or tomorrow or the day after that. I promise to live my life to the fullest and without regrets. :)
p.s. Sorry for the super long comment. :P
This made me a little teary, because I know the feeling and I am so sorry you had to go through it all. I hope next year is better to you, I wish you all the best x
ReplyDeleteHazelnut - thank you so much & it sure will!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you think that way & you're welcome, it's good to live life without regrets! Hehe it's okay I love long comments xxx
Jodie - awh.. Thank you so much & I'm sure 2012 will be much better. I hope 2012 will be good for you too, love xxx
ReplyDeleteI wish you an exciting 2012
ReplyDeleteJeroen - Thank you & same to you :)
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